true crush or haven't become a couple yet ?

In the middle of night in ubud, some thought were cross over my mind,is she my true crush or we haven't become a couple yet ?

A lot of things happen between us over these past years. she went to different class, she went and became a couple with another guys while i was trying to find my so called "first love". we stopped to contact each other but in another times we were contact each other like nothing happened after "a long silence" like a cold war.

and now we never contact each other,or maybe the time haven't come yet. i don't know either. Now,she choose her direction and really serious into it, and i felt happy with that. About me ? i'm still pursuing my dream to become a chef, still got a lot of shit happened in work place, still learning a lot of thing in the kitchen and still finding my own "rib".

I hope in the future when we have a chance to communicate each other again, we can forget about our past and start the new page between us,maybe we can become a couple or you'll be my forever crush ? :)